Who are you? Beneath your thoughts, your wants, desires, hopes, beneath your appearances and status? This is the realm of questions I have lived my reality in for the last several years. Everything I was being was towards the answer of this question, and I found it, and I lived it, to occasionally rise to the surface of that sublime state of eternal nothingness to pay the bills, to drive a car, to socialize. I believed such a state of perfect emptiness was the ultimate ‘goal,’ with everything else being a distraction. That space gave me a time in my life the way a cocoon works for a butterfly. But now I see that I was not made to stay in that cocoon, though it provided invaluable and ineffable truths. From emptiness, one is able to re-create, to re-design oneself and that is the phase I find myself in - one of outwardness: developing likes and dislikes, particular goals and desires, rather than constantly being in a state of letting everything go.